Steam Tea

People said about struggle might be so blood-ens, or strive is the whole reason of people stands out. One week ago, reading the outliers book by Malcolm Gladwell, part of the book he talks about 10.000 times.  This is the ride of some people about how they survive from the called of process, a great people drown with struggle and work hard, besides that the time came up and they prepared a lot because of 10.000 times. On the other playing, the podcast of subjective episode architecture talk about she applied 100 times of job seeker and then she is called 8 times. Some of us including me, questions about the process, like what can I always wake with 10.000 times or am I struggle might not enough yet for the goals that I must run on? reflect the indeed of me about hard work that many people strive is though off passing the glam of coma, describe the commercial passing the raid. Adventured might never be enough, about the struggle that needs of the answer.  Allah promises two ti...

Jika manusia diharuskan bangkit. Maka aku akan bercerita sedikit. Memang benar adanya cerita disetiap pagi. Tentang urusan yang harus disiapkan agar selesai saat menjumpai petang. Aku yang mungkin dipikir sebagai orang yang positif, atas segala aib yang ditutupi Allah. Lalu aku yang merasa begitu negatif di kemudian hari. Seperti membuka aibku tanpa sadar. Melakukan dosa tanpa tau dan merasa, atau kadang sengaja. Lalu meminta ampun secara dalam dan terus diulang. Melihat catatan tentang dosa dan ampun yang diminta berulang ulang. Seakan tidak bosan. Lalu mengenai pembenaran manusia adalah tempat berbuat dosa, layaknya tidak pantas diucapkan pada garis ini. Walau dengan malu tetap meminta maaf dan ampun dengan sedikit canggung untuk kesekian kali. Jelas, bahkan setiap sujud sudah terlampir maaf dan terimakasih. Ibarat air yang jatuh namun tetap kodratnya mengalir ketempatnya. Lalu aku yang mengulang dosa dan tetap memohon ampun pada Allah. Seseorang berkata aku adalah aku yang berbuat ...

Tetap tinggal. Sebentar saja. Tinggal sebentar lagi. Bukankah pengharapan hari esok akan lebih indah? Merasa lelah? Menangislah. Tidak ada yang melarang. Bahkan sepakat dengan diri sendiri terasa sulit. Aku ingin tak sekedar tinggal, tapi juga melampaui. Tetap duduk dan jaga kondisi. oh duduk bukan berarti berhenti kawan, kau masih harus melangkah setelah ini. Jangan terlalu lama berdiri bahkan lari. Bahkan dada terasa sempit dan mata yang kian meredup. Ah tidak apa-apa, kau masih didekapan-Nya. Menangislah selayaknya memang benar-benar didekap. Bahkan dalam sujud pun, elusan kepalaku terasa nyata. Tidak ada seorangpun yang ingin ditinggal sendiri. Menghadapi hari ini dan seterusnya. Bahkan untuk sedih pun terasa tak mampu. Ah bukankah Allah lebih suka hamba yang kuat daripada hamba yang lemah? Tapi kadang memang perlu berhenti sejenak. Melihat kebelakang dan kebawah. Bukan untuk sombong, tapi agar sedikit menghargai diri sendiri. Bahkan setiap hari kau ingin bertahan sampai besok ada...

For being an Islam, and absolutely a normal people of nationality. Islam becomes a majority, and another place becomes a minority. so that's the world sight Islam in a different way. that's the way Islam in my country in specific generous sincerity with too many ways. About the basic pray with million rule and turn act. So that's Muslim becoming global and makes the one whole life in the name of Islam. With the globalization of fashion, technology, and economics. Being Islam isn't hard at all, but others may feel like being fettered by Islam. Let me tell you about the statement that it's okay you watch the movie, it's okay you can't lose from all about Hollywood or kpop and then you might understand about the problem and another side that explain wrong than an Islam fact. That's good for you to must be balancing with the meet Muslim community so that ways to let know you about the different and wrong teach from movie or idol you fight for. And the about...

Setiap orang berharap. Setiap hari. Mungkin dalam doa, membuat suatu pengharapan. Mungkin untuk orang lain, kepada Allah. Hari telah berganti, tetapi ingatan tidak. Masih berfikir mengenai kejadian kemarin. Banyak dosa, ah sungguh tak tau diri hari ini dengan berani menaruh doa kepada Allah. Manusia yang terus mengulangi kesalahan. Bosan dengan rasa bersalah setiap harinya. Tapi pada siapa lagi? bukankah kodrat manusia kembali pada penciptanya? menyelesaikan berbagai masalah, mendiskusikan langkah. Bahkan seremeh doa "y Allah semoga dapet driver gojek yang ramah, motor nyaman, dan diantar dengan selamat." Oh aku lupa, tidak ada doa yang remeh. Bahkan dalam pengharapan kepada Allah. Banyak orang menggantungkan harapan. Lalu punya mimpi besar, namun takut melangkah, atau mungkin sekedar buah bibir mengisi daftar mimpi. Pernah mencoba mendiskusikannya? Untuk orang yang mengaku introvert atau ekstrovert. Atau bosan bertemu orang, bimbang membawa langkah. Satu hal yang pasti ...

People said about the girl's first love is her dad. So am I, the first man I have to see in the world. Sight me with the love and worried the most. Protect and always guide never loose and protect from the scar. Hey dad, I become girl might be welcoming adult world with the way that you give pride the most. The arms that I always keep holding on with skin begins to wrinkle.  Playing your song playlist about 500 miles away from home and memorizing another story about small talk that whenever I am scared and he always told me, "If you have Allah, so don't worried and I will always protect you. Am I ever make you in danger?" this is my first promise with the man and I always keep. So this is the agreement that always makes me melted and stays safe. My dad always teaches me to be a strong woman. Sometimes, he warns with loud and I just wondering the wrong I do. I know so much rule that I already break include love. I am sorry dad. We often discuss random talk that ed...

What I said to take care of myself. what I said be kind and be nice. It's must be crossing ahead and marking captured. I've been blind about happiness and joy. return the question to me. Sometimes I drown myself with joy and happiness, didn't care too much with my body. Soul hearing addict of being loved and vulnerable. I am blind and spill my cup of tea. Sometimes it's ok. Another time, I've got my sight cycle. Oh, my body needs to get rest. But entire soul burns to ambition. I am just judging myself. Meanwhile, other books tell me to get deal with me. Many books I read for self-improvement. To feel freedom, to feel alone, to get rest and growth me. Thanks for another day wishing good enough. Don't pretend the lack. Just different time to get another stage.

Sometimes I love being alone. Blank sigh and enjoying a snack, read the book, look around, or just walking. That time, I can find myself. Find due to the insecure. Catch the blind way I guess. Fold the wrong step or capitalizing stress about the world. That's not meaning and clearly evaluate relation with Allah. Burns to laugh and then cry. Following emo and egoistic that the material. Negative mind and toxic was I made. Burns to cry. Holding and imagine. Thanks, Allah. Always hold and loving. Met me in the sign of the way. Always welcoming and forgiveness. About the dumb, suck I always made. It happens again and again. Thanks, Allah. Carried my soul. Blessing my day. Protect me. Clearly evaluate and remind me. I am not a good and tryna be good. I am bad. Thanks, Allah. Screawed the light, hold it for dusk till dawn. Always be there for me in a bad or good day. For the meeting 5 times every day. And more time to get to You.